Like I was telling gaelicspirit</lj>, though, it's very freeing to write knowing it's not going to be posted for people waiting to read it. Is the story corny and a little cheesy? Yes. Does it contain about a billion mistakes? Probably. But, the beauty of this thing is, I'm not worried about it. I'm just writing whatever comes to mind and doing my best not to dwell on word choice or much of anything that might slow me down. I just sit and whatever pops in my head, I go with it. At this point, I can't decide what category to put it under on the NaNoWriMo site. I don't want to say romance, because I hope it's more than that. I can't say mystery or sci-fi because it's not really all that, either. I don't know what to call it at this point.
Earlier tonight, I posted my inspiration photo here on LJ (it's the post right before this one). Yes, it's of Jensen. I'm sorry, I can't think of anyone more apt to play this character--and, of course, it's his face I see when I picture Lee. Which, brings me to this. I'm not sure I'm satisfied with the names of my characters. Lee and Molly. I am terrible at choosing names. Just terrible. So, I'm just gonna go with this for now and if I think of something better, my Word has the replace option on it. ;)
Moving on to tonight's episode. How brilliant was it? I mean, hoo-boy, that was a great episode. It was so old school in so many ways. I felt like I was visiting an old friend I'd been missing dearly. The snarky, gettin' business taken care of Dean; the salt shotgun/ghost, the digging up graves/firing bones--it was awesome. I also loved that Dean stood up for himself with Sam and didn't give in. I loved the shout out to Ellen and her message for Dean. I loved how Dean's words impacted Sam and Sam was able to handle the situation maturely by apologizing, understanding Dean's POV and then turning around and not giving Dean a pass on how worried he still is about him. OH, and the smiling/smirks shared by the brothers in the car as they took off at the end! Oh how long has it been? TOO long, that's how long. And, bonus, Dean saving the girl and getting her undying gratitude while we get to see how gentle he is with the victims. Man. It was so good. I missed this so much.
One question I have, though. Ellen told Dean he needed to let somebody know just how bad it is--do you think all she meant was just this stuff with Amy or do you think it was more than that? I know at the end he told Sam his behavior was a result of the guilt/stress lying to his little bro had caused--but surely that's not all Ellen was referring to? I hope there's still more to that cryptic message to come. While we're on the topic, IF Ellen was referring to something other than the Great Amy Debacle, how bad do you think it is? And, will Dean ever tell anyone? Will Sam ever find out? These are questions that excite me. I want there to be good answers to them because this could be interesting to me if this is really something instead of a bunch of smoke blowing up our collective...back-ends.
All right. I better scoot off to bed now. I promised myself I'd get extra sleep this month to help with my writing. I haven't felt this energized about writing in a while. I really hope when this is over, it'll transfer to WCA so I can get it finished for y'all. *crosses fingers* Good luck to all the NaNoWriMos out there! Happy writing!
Goodnight, all! Sweet Deans :)
P.S. I apologize if there are a slew of mistakes in this posting. I'm really tired and all those words could be anything for all I know. *yawns*